Chapter 166
While I was walking down the road from the mansion to the place where the carriage stopped, suddenly I saw a garden.
...... beautiful, and.
I was usually busy with my father’s work, but I occasionally tried to take a rest in my free time in these type of gardens.
That was my sister’s recommendation.
It is said that seeing green reassures the mind, and if you look far away, your eyes rest.
Although I do not know whether it is true or not, my older sister was doing that, so I thought it was true and began to try it too.
When I am looking at the beautifully arranged garden, it is noticeable that one woman is sitting in the distance.
“... hello, are you okay?”
As she sits in the ground, I get worried that her physical condition is bad or something happened that is why she is in the floor and I try to get close to her.
“So ...! Sorry”
Perhaps she has not noticed me... she was surprised to hear a voice and reacted with a small cry.
Her long and beautiful blond hair shakes with the wind as she turns around.
“I’m only thinking a bit ... ....”
She is afraid of me and gently try to hid her light green eyes.
“I am sorry to disturb you... the reason why I talked to you while you were deep in thoughts, is that I thought your condition was bad or something happened to you as you were sitting on the ground ... ....”
“No ...... I am only imitating a technique I saw recently to relax .... When I got stuck with an idea, I feel like I can relax and clear my mind better if I look at the garden, so ... ...”
“Ah......”
I remember my older sister and laugh.
On the other hand, the woman seemed uncomfortable.
Does she think she imperfectly imitated it, so she is being laughed at?.
“My sister was saying the same thing as you, remembering that I laughed.... Her mind gets confused after many ideas and that’s why she says she can think of things from a new perspective if she looks at the garden. I am also encouraged to try that by my sister so I try to do it as much as possible when time is available. ”
“That’s right .... Once you get stuck with ideas, you feel the same as if you got into a labyrinth, and you start to think ideas that go nowhere, as if you are running in circles, but mostly, if I go to the garden and try thinking calmly in my mind I can see the exit, it’s simple, is not it? ”
Suddenly being told that vigorously by her, I swallowed back what I was going to say.
She was ashamed when she noticed and murmured “Oh ... I did not want to...”, I smiled at that sentence and she smiled again at me.
“Well, I felt that it was better to go to the garden even a little time, rather than taking a break inside, in some cases it’s more efficient seen the green scenery in the garden.”
“Well, I am sorry to say that, I am Letty, I was rude.. but you are...”
“My name is Bern... can I call you by that name afterwards?”
“.......Likewise”
Letty said so, with a soft smile.
“Is Mr. Bern talking with her big sister often?”
“why?”
“I am interested, because I have an older brother, but I don’t talk much to my brother because he is often in other places ...”
“I think that what I can say you will not be very helpful, for some time before I entered the academy, I did not speak much with my sister... and while at the academy ... at the end I gave my older sister a deep wound that will last for the rest of her life.”
“... Are you regretting?”
“I can not say lightly that I regret it, because I can not compensate merely by regretting the past, there is no choice but to change my way of life... to refrain from hurting her again ... Someday, I will be able to help my sister so I am thinking that I want to grow fast so I can help her when she needs it ... and not hurt her anymore... ”
I am worried that my sister thinks I’m too terrible to be able to help ... with a bitter smile I muttered.
“Oh Dear......”
“I talked only about me ... ... How about you Letty, how is your relation brother and sister?”
“It’s very good, just ... ... Well, it might be the same as you.”
“What does that mean ......”
“Even though I have always kept trying to help him and I am struggling to grow fast, because I want to help my older brother ...... My older brother will do anything alone... so much he doesn’t want to depend on me.. that it’s useless for me to try to help....”
“I see......”
“I wanted to be born as a man ... so I could walk side by side with my older brother,”
Letty stands up from the ground.
While holding herself as if to ascertain her own existence.
That figure was full of thoughts and sadness... I understood that is why I said it.
“...... Up until now I was skeptical about if women can work the same way as men. Yes, I may not have even thought about it, even doubt if it’s possible, but because all the work is done by only one woman alone in my family’s territory I do not think so. ”
the wind blew softly and calm...
The petals of the flowers blooming in the garden dance in the sky with the wind blowing.
I don’t if it was because of what has been said, or as a way of answering my statements, she raised her face.
Her glowing golden hair dances swayed by the wind.
I continued talking.. because I knew she needed it...
“However, this was something that made me thought my sister’s appearance. What is necessary for fulfilling your duties is the ability you yourself have and that alone .. Before that, sex is a trivial problem. My older sister is a woman and because of that she has a woman’s point of view, she is doing so amazing things that I have never seen before. That also made me think that half of this country are women, those who don’t incorporate the unique opinion of a woman are distorted. So, I am ... part of those who don’t care about a person sexuality, but thinks that their power depends alone on the strength and the will of the person himself or herself. If you want to become power, you should find a way for yourself ”
She rounded her eyes as if surprised for a moment ... and then she laughed.
She seems to be very happy.
At the same time, she seems me as if she wants to say that she found something interesting.
“Well ... others would think that woman was bearish if you say that she supported everything on her own.”
She murmured something, but I could not hear it unfortunately.
She did have strangely a fresh smile that was not in her face before when I encountered her in the garden.
“I heard a very good story, I would like to see you by all means again if there are opportunities.”
“Please lets meet again, it was a pleasure to talk with you.”
“When you come back to the Imperial Palace, please let me know by all means because I am working here regularly, so if you let me tell by Ruti, I will be informed soon”
“Yeah, I will”
Listening to the affirmative words, Letty left the spot.
I went back to my home after seeing her back.